A Vessel!

This morning I woke up and first thanked the Lord for the past day as it was victorious, and then moved on to thank Him for this day and ask the same thing as yesterday.

"...Lord help me to be more like you, to love like you love and if possible to love through you as I am so imperfect, to if in any situation I am in a difficult spot with someone, that I may see your face in them and thus make me aware of your presence and remind myself to love. For strength to endure whatever load I am given and joyfully carry it to whatever area it is needed. Then I went on to thank God for the privileges He has graciously given me, that for some can be overlooked. "Thank you Father, for allowing me to be a raising hand for these 8 children, for giving me this husband to love and support, the Sunday school teacher position, and best of all the opportunity to plant your seed of Love in someone Else's heart and life, that may not know you...".

Then I realized something, that wasn't quite clear before today, because I had just gone about my day as though not to see it as blessings but in a completely different light, a routine so to speak. A wife, A mother, A teacher, A cook, A cleaner, A Child of God, A daughter, A sister...

How do I do it, I take care of 10 people 8 being children 8 being men, cook, clean, making lunches, doing laundry, brushing hair, reading stories, shedding tears over beds while praying for them and look out for these beings, I take care of a house that I do my best to try to make and keep a Home ( because a house is not a Home without Jesus (LOVE), i spend hours a week on Sunday school lessons preparing the youth for what is in this world and teaching them about what only God can provide. I spend hours weekly praying for my family and friends that is lost, sending them messages and bible studies and verses with the hope that one might come to know GOD.

Really?

Am I that blessed, one to have all these privileges but also to still be sane after the weeks end. I can go to bed and not worry about what we will eat tomorrow, even if we live on a single income. In any trial, or situation God carries me through. I know that if i did not have God in my life, if I didn't do my best to follow His commands, and live out the life He has planned for me, then I would most definitely be in a very dark place. Only God gives the strength to endure such tasks. Who am I Lord, that you are mindful of me. At some point in all of these roles I complained about the heavy load it was, I grumbled about how long some things take, about how it took my "Me time", when really I was so wrong. Yes it is a Heavy load but not that heavy, but through all of this I was learning who the real "ME" was. I am a Vessel, "abide in me, and I in you" is what He says, to some degree I can almost say I am co-dependent upon Jesus ( I am addicted to pleasing HIM) Everything for His glory, THANK YOU LORD. I never will ask for anything less or different than that of what you have chosen me for and blessed me with. Some may not see it as a blessing but these some will not find you in there darkest hour either because they do not have you in their hearts or do not want to. I am with the peace God gives when you trust in Him to fulfill His promise.

I BELIEVE IN GOD AND BELIEVE GOD. HE WILL DO IT.

It truly is as simple as that.

What a great privilege it is to know that "Yet we were sinners, Christ died for us", I am in debt with Him, and so very thankful for all that He has done for me and for all He has brought me out of and for His light, His faithful and truthful Word, for His renewed mercies, and for His Abounding, overflowing Love. Thank you God.

"ALLOW ME TO CONTINUE TO BE THIS VESSEL OF LOVE FOR YOU OH LORD"

"I WILL WORSHIP YOU, WITHOUT ABANDON LORD, WITH ALL I AM AND ALL YOU HAVE GIVEN ME, WITHOUT ABANDON, LET YOUR WILL BE DONE".

Melissa Harris