I am blessed!

I am so blessed and thank full for His grace and mercy, not that I am at all deserving of it and he knows this yet he continues to pour his grace and mercy out on me. He remembers that I am just dust yet He continues to bless me.
For many years I recall the times I would sit and wonder, why had my life been so drastic, what was the purpose of being abandoned as a child, or molested, abused physically, emotionally, forgotten, unloved by my own mother or at least that is what it felt like. Having to grow up without structure or to take care of myself, at such a young age, going through many of the sins in this world, to say the least, this is just a small list of the trying things I have endured in my life, and here I sit not like most crying for sympathy, blaming my parents or others, yet I have come to the realization that My Lord has only giving me what He knows I can handle, it is my recipe, many may not have been my choices or even my mistakes, but I have been given them to live by, through, and with. He brought me out of all of these messed up situations and alive and still loving Him, what a blessing, Thank you lord for the understanding and wisdom to know that you are always blessing me and trying to have me use the very ears you have blessed me with to hear You.

Today, I am where no one I am sure would ever have thought i would be. Blessed with a wonderful christian husband, and a very faithful and loving christian family. A mother I have never really had, a spiritual guider that is not just my pastor but my father-in law, and family members to lean on in times of crisis. Yes I wish that my own family that I have been blessed with did not judge me so that it prevents us from even sitting down together anymore, but they do, still this doesn't keep me from praying even more for them, and wishing for them to one day see the truth and hunger and thirst for Him the way I do, they way He wants us to.

I am blessed with the very air I breath, all I have ever wanted was a baby, a loving husband whom showed me and told me how he loved and and how beautiful i was to him, and a close loving family, yet God has blessed me with 8 kids, more than a loving husband, and a family that sadly enough loves me more than my own. All i can say is I am not worthy, I am not worthy, but he chose me, and I will work for Him and tell of Him until he takes my last breath, and stops blessing me.

I am blessed just to know that Jesus Christ is Lord, blessed blessed blessed!